Another day. Another day of deciding what to do. I have a list… and on most days, I do follow that list. Otherwise I would be in my favorite leather chair watching Housewives reruns all day long. Hah!
It has been 8 months since I walked away from a job that I held for 10 years. A ministry. A passion. But circumstances changed and I knew that I knew that I knew….I could no longer work there. It changed from a ministry to “work”. I spent months silently grieving my loss. My daily routine changed drastically. The people in my life changed drastically. I found out who my true friends really were. Those who checked up on me (and still do). Those who wanted to continue to “do life together”…and do. Those who have listened to me and heard my heart. I spent months not wanting to walk into a church building again. Such a dry season away from people who meant the most to me.
And in all of this time…I lost my passion. What’s next? Where do I go from here? Lord, show me…please!
John 3:8….the wind blows where it wishes, and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”
I have to believe that God has a plan for me…a good plan. He has promised that to me and I do believe it. I still don’t know what that plan is. So I wait. I read His Word. I pray that He would saturate my soul with everything He has for me. I wait.
Like the wind, He is there. He surrounds me. He blows life into me. He cools me when I get too hot, LOL! And He surrounds me with his warmth when I most need it. He commands me to love Him with all my heart, soul and mind. He commands me to love others. He commands me to cling to Him and to serve Him. (Joshua 22: 5-6). He commands me to forgive.
Like the wind…He comes out of nowhere and blows life back into me…and into my days…and for now, I wait. I wait in the hallway of life for that next door to open. That next season.I choose to believe that He is in my midst. And I make the most of what I have been given today. My Redeemer. My family. My friends.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Pro 3:5-6
So today…no matter where you are in this life, my prayer for you is that you would let the wind blow!!! And that you would know that it is He. He’s all around. He doesn’t stop. He won’t leave. He loves. He protects. He forgives.